Test of Dignity

You have always been taught to maintain dignity in all circumstances . No matter what, you don't give in, don't let your urge take over, But what if the urge is in itself to lose your dignity. lose whatever you once believed in, since your beliefs didn't turn our well for you.
You seek change, and you now believe that this change necessarily comes at the cost of your self-esteem. Isn't your will that you possess strong enough to hold you back.
Letting the negative thoughts prevail, is it justified?
Who exactly can judge what's positive & negative?
Conscience does hint that some action won't be called ethical but isn't that a restraint being put upon an individual's right to freedom? what if he wants to break free?
So you set an agenda, a futuristic one , of trying out something you haven't till date being submissive to the restraints imposed. The day slowly approaches for you to break free from the shackles and second thoughts creep in.
Is it the goodness inside calling or is it you pussying out?
It takes a lot of courage/stupidity to make the leap. You think to yourself if you're up for it?
What exactly is stopping you? Perhaps the fear of regret that will or probably will come later on.
Won't you be able to forgive yourself. There's definitely this dilemma encircling your thoughts that regret will prevail anyhow.
A condition of Zugzwang, where the most viable move would be to not move at all. But are we born for only this, to be stunted??
Make a move , take the leap, with no regrets.
Life is too short to do right things all the time.

-Anuj Kalra