Last Chance

It takes a lot of courage to end this life
Jump off, poison or slit of a knife..
may be I'll gather it in due course of time
till then I would commit this unforgivable crime..

Yes, my conscience allowed me
hurt them, make'em cry..
not deigned to always listen
retaliate now, don't just sigh...

Do I unleash the beast within
or let it be tamed?
Do I have them for their skin,
If I bleed, are they to be blamed?

they say, you're the master
Remember God resides within you
with all my might, I'll take this last chance
it's either you, or I'll let the devil through...

                                                                    - Anuj Kalra

Travelling the distance

So there's this girl for whom you're ready to travel the distance, crossing all sorts of barriers; you never got a chance though. She was never there at the receiving end. You never lost touch; birthdays, new year's came in handy to strike a conversation, visit her place, but somehow never had the opportunity to unleash the romantic that is you.
Always there to listen to her problems, since you were a good friend to her (might as well be a friend forever). Never did that optimistic streak left, you hoped that one day she might understand. There were times when the night would pass by filled with the never ending talks literally about anything and everything. Over the years after high school comfort level has increased considerably but still pouring your heart out brings distress as both of you stand your ground to be or not to be in love.
Still there was a craving that they never got the chance to be spending time out of the normal setup that is in the hometown. Random talks did leave to a point wherein plans were made for a detour to the pink city. That old familiar rush in the veins and you are high on life again, now everything seems just right in this beautiful world. Yet again you wish that things remain like this, no further obstacles should creep in but be rest assured at the same time that things have never been easy for you so why the fuck will they let you be in peace this fucking time. Plan got cancelled, something came up at her end leaving you with just a souvenir in the form of cancelled tickets in her name. You think to yourself that what if things would have executed the way they were planned? , what if she understood? would she have traveled the distance too?